I'm ugly and I'm perfect
and no one has ever dared to throw acid at me
I'm ugly and I'm cute
compared to the stars I'm as pretty as I can be
I have my pretty scars
a knife is a weapon, a tool, and a toy
I change like fluid water
a femme fatale, a doll, mistaken for a boy
The shape of stars
looked at with distance they may shine like gold
zoom in with truth
and you'll see the flames that within spheres mold
All things beautiful
are beautiful when melted with dreams and desire
Is it beauty, or is it false?
when broken into particles, with no formal attire
You see me as a rose
and a rose is but a flower blending with the rest
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Old night has died
the one to sleep
New day was born
no tears to weep
From dark to light
no hollow hearts
When death gives birth
it's where it starts
For light shall bring
new virgin soil
And dry the seas
of sorrow's coil
One day, one life
no painful lie
Yet those was born
Must also die
The sun goes down
the bloodred sky
Old night is back
We all shall cry
I read your lips,
but not your mind.
Well, at least not that much.
Energy surrounding
everything here,
without the sinful touch.
You're so silent
and buried well,
behind the velvet curtain.
Pondering
and wondering,
are these feelings certain?
I keep falling
back to you,
in realms of dark confusion.
Like evening tides,
I wander ashore,
seeking your love conclusion.
You ask why,
and so do I.
But no one cares
about other people's fears.
We just live,
and then let die.
The very last minutes,
we cry and cry and cry.
As if you just lost
your life at every cost.
Forgetting that you
must fight your way through.
Chasing the heights,
every joy, every lie.
To fall down again
and having to say goodbye.
This is life
this is strife.
You feel, you fight,
like a moth towards the light.
Bipolar accident;
Lunchtime was cancelled;
And the meeting was set:
We all laughed,
We all cried,
And they became smoke inside my head.
The phone was ringing;
But it was my ears;
Three songs played on a loop:
Merry Christmas,
Moonlight Sonata,
And a little spider climbing on my hat.
I enjoy rhyming;
even without the rhyme;
A, B, C, C, A:
Stab the crab,
Eat the cookie,
And the poet flipped the Janus coin.
Makes sense;
Nothing really does;
Only the moments:
Spontanous dance,
careless memory,
And the time of sanity was forgotten.
Quick to be dead
and pretend to smile.
Flashes of light,
gonna be here a while.
Strings are attached
to organs of black.
Please, stand still,
and then take a step back.
Tossing the ball
back and forth, unsung.
Black-eyed, silent,
don't speak the Devil's tongue.
Bored to a death
of stressful laughing.
Muscular cramp,
detached from the graphing.
Run away, quick,
soon the clock will melt.
Then learn to swim,
and wear a safety belt.
Snowflake ballet;
silent music within the cold.
Wonder of nature;
beauty of winter soon to unfold.
Trees put to sleep;
awaiting of the coming spring.
Snow like a carpet;
covered, put to sleep by the king.
Embrace the white;
kisses from the angel of death.
Stand still in time;
asphyxiating crystals by every breath...
The black sheep God
has done it again
he took the sugar pill
and rainbow-painted the pain
All things drop dead
and embrace your true Lord
As we sit down to drink
from cups of death adored
Yet death is not conclusive
pretend at least tonight
just let your hair down
swollow candies of dark light
The ring of burden
has come to an end
yet neverending
just shifting and to blend
Sugar-high, the lie
and to dance, the illusion
fun-chasing, divine
we're living the confusion
The black sheep God
has done it again
he took the sugar pill
and rainbow-painted the pain
C'est la vie-
Memento Mori-
I'll do it again
I'll take the suga
Crimson tides which lay to rest
beneath the moon, a lover's quest
the dark light leading way
to bleeding love, the end of day.
A man of longing and of Death,
with black wings and with howling breath,
walking by the crimson tides,
within him bleeding love confides.
Enchanted by the red hypnotic
of seduction and of sleep.
Guided by the mortal light,
first to drown and then to weep.
Sirens singing lullabies,
to a slumber within the red.
Suicidal pleasures is
to dance among the dead.
Winter's birth of newborn spring,
with crimson dreams the sirens bring,
a time of bleeding love
to please the Gods above.
Castaway into the deep,
I'm ugly and I'm perfect
and no one has ever dared to throw acid at me
I'm ugly and I'm cute
compared to the stars I'm as pretty as I can be
I have my pretty scars
a knife is a weapon, a tool, and a toy
I change like fluid water
a femme fatale, a doll, mistaken for a boy
The shape of stars
looked at with distance they may shine like gold
zoom in with truth
and you'll see the flames that within spheres mold
All things beautiful
are beautiful when melted with dreams and desire
Is it beauty, or is it false?
when broken into particles, with no formal attire
You see me as a rose
and a rose is but a flower blending with the rest
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Fragments, you say,
and think you've got a deal.
Illusion, I say,
and know it can be real.
Some of us would die
before the beauty,
that you so easily deny.
Some of us breathes
the atoms of life,
that you so easily sheathes.
I know I may be wry,
and say things that are wrong.
I observe the world around me,
and sometimes eat what comes along.
Intense heavy clouds,
of whispers like knives.
Cuts like rape;
disorder, torn shape.
Slow-motion throw up,
disgust by every breath.
Bleed through eyes;
current beauty dies.
Hidden flesh of hurt,
swallowed by the shadows.
silent tears;
music for my ears.
Crimson tides which lay to rest
beneath the moon, a lover's quest
the dark light leading way
to bleeding love, the end of day.
A man of longing and of Death,
with black wings and with howling breath,
walking by the crimson tides,
within him bleeding love confides.
Enchanted by the red hypnotic
of seduction and of sleep.
Guided by the mortal light,
first to drown and then to weep.
Sirens singing lullabies,
to a slumber within the red.
Suicidal pleasures is
to dance among the dead.
Winter's birth of newborn spring,
with crimson dreams the sirens bring,
a time of bleeding love
to please the Gods above.
Castaway into the deep,
The black sheep God
has done it again
he took the sugar pill
and rainbow-painted the pain
All things drop dead
and embrace your true Lord
As we sit down to drink
from cups of death adored
Yet death is not conclusive
pretend at least tonight
just let your hair down
swollow candies of dark light
The ring of burden
has come to an end
yet neverending
just shifting and to blend
Sugar-high, the lie
and to dance, the illusion
fun-chasing, divine
we're living the confusion
The black sheep God
has done it again
he took the sugar pill
and rainbow-painted the pain
C'est la vie-
Memento Mori-
I'll do it again
I'll take the suga
Snowflake ballet;
silent music within the cold.
Wonder of nature;
beauty of winter soon to unfold.
Trees put to sleep;
awaiting of the coming spring.
Snow like a carpet;
covered, put to sleep by the king.
Embrace the white;
kisses from the angel of death.
Stand still in time;
asphyxiating crystals by every breath...
Quick to be dead
and pretend to smile.
Flashes of light,
gonna be here a while.
Strings are attached
to organs of black.
Please, stand still,
and then take a step back.
Tossing the ball
back and forth, unsung.
Black-eyed, silent,
don't speak the Devil's tongue.
Bored to a death
of stressful laughing.
Muscular cramp,
detached from the graphing.
Run away, quick,
soon the clock will melt.
Then learn to swim,
and wear a safety belt.
It's guaranteed to save your life
Unless it kills you first;
He stretches now those weary wings
And covers up the worst,
And Samael will say there was
Nobody left to blame,
So he'll just smile and shrug it off
And call me by her name,
It's perfect, so it'd never work;
Just like all else you do,
So next time that I see them I'll
Ask what they did to you,
And Daddy's rich from blood money,
And thousands don't transcend,
And as for fallen angels, well
At least they don't pretend.
And Samael would say there is
A glitch, and I agree,
But maybe you should know that
You're escapism to me.
When the frost gives up its conquest
And I shiver into spring,
And the branches start to beckon
At the South winds for a fling,
My mind will always run ahead
To colder days than these;
I'll let the slate erase me, maybe
Then my heart might freeze.
But she said that she remembers
The blood upon the snow,
It melts her into being and
I hope she'll always know.
So the silence all but deafens;
Even if you'd never shout,
I just wish someone would break it,
Will you breathe and blow it out?
If I ever was desired,
And whatever I became,
I despair to leave her presence and
Forget her very name,
I'll deny it 'til tomorrow,
I will b
A glowing pile of moonstones
Has nothing to disguise,
But I can see the universe
Reflected in his eyes.
I searched the dead calm oceans,
Gazed all the way across
The dry and untouched canyons
That none before did cross.
Among the shining moonstones,
Given what he has to bear,
He reaches to eternity
And touches only air.
Understanding that there's nothing
At all to understand,
Finding nothing in his features, in
The fingers on his hand,
But here by the silent moonstones,
Perhaps I wouldn't care,
If I looked and only found him
With a dead and endless stare.
The peaks here touch the emptiness;
No heaven there to reach,
And
I wish you had a dirt road
To lead nowhere at all,
That you could walk not minding
Its curvy rise and fall,
And when I cross the border, are
You poisoning the hive?
Have you burned the old piano
That sat beside the drive?
You ask if it is personal,
This tough turn of the way,
And then you laugh, remembering
You know what I would say.
The house is empty by this time,
I screamed all you could bear,
Exhausted by the broken fence,
You fell asleep right there.
And segregating One is not
Attractive as a creed
From Gran's abandoned armchair lined
With dust and tumbleweed,
I wish you had a dirt road
To lead you anywhere,
With ro
It will not last forever, secret
Gardens too get old,
And in the icy morning you
Complain my feet are cold,
There were no wings of love as aid;
I had to climb the wall,
And tearing all the ivy off
It stood exposed and tall.
I do not want to hear the speech
That's caught inside your yawn:
"I know of secret gardens, this;
They don't stretch on and on."
And though our muted presence,
It leaves a funny stain,
We watch the fountains fall asleep
And freeze with English rain,
And through that stony quiet
The aching morning brings
I'm resolute and silent
And mum of holy things.
Even though their memories
Are hidden and unseen,
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